Living for the simple things in life: Turning our burdens over to Him
I received this letter from my nephew yesterday. I blogged about my nephew being in jail and what he did to get their before. I linked to that in this post.
This is the first letter I have received from him, it brought me to tears.
The top of the paper is dated Sunday Morning 10/22/06
Hi Aunt Lori,
Thank you for writing me, every letter I get makes me look forward to getting home. I still think everyday about the bad choice I made in life and I can't understand why I made them. It has cost me a lot in life. My freedom to be with my children, my license and it almost cost me my marriage forever. God works in mysterious ways, I have grown closer to Him, in all the time I have to myself, I call upon Him for comfort and He gives me peace. I really miss my kids and Terra. I am scared for her having a child by herself, I wish I could be by her side. I have always loved her with all my heart but didn't know how to be a husband or most of all a friend to her. I know now who I am and what I am commanded to be. I will be that or do my best to be that person till God takes me away. It's so hard not being able to be their for them.
I thank you for everything you've done for us. You have always been there for me and Terra and the kids. Tell everyone I said HI.
This boot camp is not so hard but it’s supposed to be the hardest in the country. I must be stronger then the people who said this place was hard. Time really moves slowly here but probably because so much runs through my mind. Terra said that Noah is remembering verses? That is so good and nice to hear.
Hopefully Derik will let me work with him again, I don't I don't know I need a full time job or they will violate me again and I will go back to jail. Pray God will provide me with a job. I know it will be hard without having a license but God will take care of me. I'm not going to stress too much, it will take time and patience but my life will be back on track. The worse part about the whole situation is the kids suffering without a Dad. I wish I never did the things I did. I was not thinking about my kids or myself at the time. I always would try to keep them safe and never put hem in the middle. When I didn't have the kids I was lonely and miserable and drank to get my mind off of things. If I had known who I really was and had the faith in God that I do now, this all would maybe not have happened. I take this as God's big plan to restore my life to Him. I really think this had to happen for me to let Him work in my life. I am just a man and will always make mistakes but God is changing me and my wife.
Again thanks for writing,