I talked to a friend yesterday about my 42nd year of life. I have a few more days to enjoy it and do something worth while. I have to say it has not been a very profitable year for me. I pondered back over each month to see if I did anything to further the Kingdom. I haven't talk to any one about the Lord. I made some very poor decisions that will affect the rest of my life. I not only made decisions that would affect my life, I dragged another innocent person into my thoughtless plan to get my daughter married.( this is no joke, I really did this stupid thing) My daughter is a beautiful young lady. Yes, she could pick a husband for herself, and no I have never done this before. To make a very long story short, I hurt some very innocent people with this plan of mine. I wanted my daughter to marry a Godly man that would lead her and her children down the right path in life. The man I picked fit this to a T.
Due to some unforeseen events, this did not work out. People got hurt and lives got changed. My life will never be the same. My life feel apart this year due to this very poor decision.
Now that I have that off my chest, I can move on. I have learned from my errors, that you can't play with people's lives.(I did ask for this mans forgiveness, he didn't grate me it but I did try) I hurt this poor man and my daughter very badly. It will take me a while to forgive myself for this. I have moved out of this man's life so he can heal. All I can do for my daughter, is keep raising her the proper way. I pray someone as good as this man I chose for her, comes along and marries her.
This shadowed my thoughts all week. I tried to think of any good, which I have done, or anyone that I have helped. This is were my friend came into play. I was telling this person how I wanted to write about my year. The good I have done and the not so wise things I have done. This person helped me see some good, which I had done for others. I was very happy that I just didn't waste a year on selfish "me". These are the things this person named.
1. I lead worship every other week in our church.
2. I work in the nursery.
3. I worked as a substitute Awana worker almost every Wednesday evening when people couldn't make it.
4. I took meals to people when they were sick or had a baby.
5. I visited people in the hospital.
6. I helped my parents take care of their dogs when my dad had heart surgery.
7. I helped my brother with his kids, getting them to and from baseball.
8. I helped my daughter-in-law when she had her new baby. I watch my grandchildren often.
Interesting things that happened to me this year
I got to go to Chicago with my husband on a business trip. You have to understand my husband and I never got to take a honeymoon or any trip together in the 20 years we have been married. We have 6 children and they always come first.
I got to get a photo shoot of me for a painting, to be shown at an art exhibition in August.
I was able to head up a Praise/Worship event at out church. It was a two hour singspiration with many different styles of music selections. This was so much fun to be a part of. It was alot of work, but worth every second I devoted to it.
Work done on our house;
Two years ago we bought a 1920 old farm house. It needed some work, but it was perfect for my family. This year we had new siding put on our house, new windows put in, our upstairs remodeled. We still have to paint the whole inside of our house, and finish something's upstairs, but it looks so nice now. I was able to work hard on the outside landscaping this summer. I planted alot of new flowers, some perennials, and other types of flowers. This year I was able to add a touch of me to my outdoors. I planted a few peonies, a mexican heather, a few other perennials, the names have left me.
The more I write the more I see that God has bless me greatly this year.