Tuesday, May 29, 2007

A big Hug

One fun thing about graduations has to be going through all the old pictures. This picture is of my twins Jimmy and John, (they were about 5 months old) with there grandfather about 4 months before he died. He sure loved our boys! It brought back so many happy memories when my Mother-in-law showed me this picture today.

Sorry for over reacting today, I have been so good all this time! My emotions just all of a sudden came on me as I was getting ready for Church on Sunday; it just got worse, until this morning I thought I was going to crumble. I was going through all the details of the party in my mind and all of a sudden it all hit me like a big brick falling on my head. The tears started falling and they wouldn't stop. Just this morning my A.J. over slept and I had to run him to school. I have to say it was the best feeling in the world. I was rushed and overwhelmed because I had my Mother-in-law and daughter-in-law over to plan the food and wrap silverware for the graduation party. I just couldn't even be upset because I know, one day soon, I will long to be able to run him to school or just give my boy a hug.

Before we go to bed at night our children come in and give us hugs and kisses. (The Waltons is what we sound like at night, "Good night JimBob", "Good night JohnBob" o.k. I'm being silly) Boaz likes to sneak in our bed once in a while still. (Our baby is way to old but he tries anyway) A.J. came in to give us hugs last night and said, "o.k. as a reward, it is my turn to sleep in your bed tonight". (all six foot 175 pounds of him, "I don't think so") (He thinks he is so funny) I will sure miss his funny personality. He is a good young man! I think he is going to do just fine. We raised him to love the Lord and follow his teachings so I have to trust in the Lord to watch over him. (How hard it is to let go)

14 comments:

Neva said...

Praying for you

Peace
neva

dot said...

Cute picture and oh those precious memories!

Jim said...

Hi Lori -- Thanks for the visit out of your busy schedule.
Do you think mama birds have some of the same parental feelings we have? Poor Mama Bird, she has to push her kids out of the next every year of her life!
That's the way God made us, the kids are raised and supposed to be out on their own (of course honoring their parents while doing this!).
Neva in her last comment may have hit on something, this cycle helps us to realize how much God loves us too!
I've been praying for you all. Just will add this new twist now.
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Linda said...

I'm just catching up with you Lori. I think it's perfectly understandable that you are emotional right now. Lots of life-changing things happening in your life right now.
I will be praying for you. I pray that the peace of God will fill your heart.

e-Mom said...

Ohhhhh, how hard. I feel for you, Lori. We Moms have such a hard time letting go (and Dads too!)

Our children are close, but I've been over-reacting this week as well. We've been making plans for my step-Mom's memorial service, and some of those past negative feelings from previous losses have bubbled up... sort of all mixed together. Maybe that's part of what you're feeling too--old losses.

Anyhoo, give yourself time to grieve. Just let it all out, as it comes up. You'll feel His presence if you do. "Blessed are those who mourn." You're in my prayers. :~)

(Wonderful photos, BTW!)

Deepak Gopi said...

It is really a touching post+cute pics

Mike M said...

Lori,

The good thing about a son is no matter how old he gets he will always need his mother.

I tell you that from experience.

-0-0-

jel said...

Huggs

Dianne said...

It will get better...I promise. Your relationship will change too...for the better. You'll become best friends with a family link. It makes the visits that much more beautiful.

groovyoldlady said...

I'm not a terribly emotional person. When my daughter got married, I got through the WHOLE shooting match with lots of giggles and without one snivel...until they drove away. Waaaaaah! I was a basket case then!

Lot's of tears were shed over our son who left the nest MUCH TOO early. Now he's at Army bootcamp. No tears, but lots of sighing and praying!

It's not easy to raise kids and it's even harder to let them go...

Kristy said...

Praying for you, my friend.....
**hugs**

donna said...

praying for you...

hugs
donna

Amel's Realm said...

Yeah, letting go is definitely NOT easy...I'm still trying to learn it, too. And it's really a rollercoaster ride. But it does get better as time goes by...and you know you'll be fine and your loved one(s) will be fine in His hands.

Corry said...

I know how difficult this is, but instead of seeing it as an end, see it as the start of a new stage in both your relationship. He will need you just as much, only in a different way.

Praying for you! :-)

God's Grace.