I had a good day yesterday! My papers ran on time, YEAH! I was able to get home, take a shower and head off to church. Our Pastors are going through the book of Hebrews right now so we are learning some very important writings.
I am so humbled by my church body right now. All of their prayers and little gifts of love, cards, emails, calls. Then there is all of my blogging friends! It really brings me to my knees in thankfulness to the Lord for putting me where I am right now. My dear friend(Marion and her daughter's) and long time sister in Christ remembered me yesterday with a little gift. I was reminded of our Jr. Choir days together, years ago. I don't know how this dear sister put up with me being the director. I was so stressed all the time. Oh dear, I'm glad those days are behind me. I work much better under our new Jr. Choir director; the pressure is off.
After church I still felt really good so me and the hubby made pancakes, sausage and eggs for my families lunch. The boy's seemed to enjoy that. I then relaxed with my hubby until he had to head off to work.
Believe it or not I still felt really good so I headed off to a graduation party for a dear friends daughter. Bri was so little when Joe and Jen started attending our church. Joe and Jen's little ones are the boy's I spend a bit of time with. They call me Nana and think it is a treat to come to my house. I just love those babies so much. I got big hugs and kisses all day from them. I worked it out with their Mama to get them next week. I promised they could play at their Nana's park. It is really a little swing set and sand box out back of my house.
I had so much fun talking to people at the party last night, I didn't get home until 9:00 p.m. I did help clean up instead of just talking all night.
It was a wonderful ending to my day.
One last things, I am reading Knowing God by J.I. Packer. If you have never read this book, you are really missing out. I'll update a little of what I am learning each week. I just love it!
God continues to caring me through each day.
Monday, June 30, 2008
Saturday, June 28, 2008
My little get Away
I wanted you all to know that I won't be posting anymore Cancer updates on "Living for the simple thing in life" blog. I want to leave this blog open to write about my Walk with the Lord, family, home, friends and loved ones. What I've been up to and just a fun relaxing time to get away from it all.
I did open up my Cancer blog this A.M. I will write in it daily for anyone who is wondering how I am doing. You can just click on my profile and hit "My Journey with Cancer".
See Ya
I did open up my Cancer blog this A.M. I will write in it daily for anyone who is wondering how I am doing. You can just click on my profile and hit "My Journey with Cancer".
See Ya
Friday, June 27, 2008
Family Update
I have had a bit of a busy week. I felt really good so I wanted to fit in as much as I could before my second Chemo treatment today. The last time I was down until about Thursday. I know now, that I will have a good week and a not so good week. I was able to weed all my flower beds and trim back all my rose bushes. All the new plants I planted in the early spring, are all starting to bloom now.
A special thank you goes out to my walking buddy Maria. Thank you so much for driving me to Chemo today. It was really a lot of fun!
Bo's soccer is now all over. We are sending him to a soccer camp for a week in July but that is right by our house. He had a great season; his travel team finished with a very close second. Only losing by one point. It was a great season plus his coach was wonderful. I could really tell he cared about this group of boy's.
The twins are doing well! They are relaxing this summer. Oh, they help me around the house. We all do Monday cleaning now instead of it just being me. They seem to like cleaning with mom. We all have a different job we do so it goes really fast. The boy's also take care of the yard work now.
Some good news
My Sailor is coming home to see us again. He flies in next Wednesday and will be here until Sunday. He deploys in September so this will be the last time I get to see him until next June. We talk everyday right now so it is going to be a bit of a shock to my system when he is gone. He has already warned me this week that he won't be able to email everyday. I might not hear from him for weeks at a time. Sometimes it is so hard to be a mom.
My son Bret, Jess and my little grandbabies are in Kentucky right now. Bret is opening two more Auto Port plants there. They will be gone for a bit. I miss them already!
Becca is back in Texas now and is doing well. I sure loved seeing her after my surgery. She came and helped her Mama get back on my feet and ran my routes when her dad got sick. I miss her too!
Prayer
My step-dad hasn't been doing very well. His red blood count is really low. Please pray for him, my mom and my little sister's.
I'll try to blog again soon! I just wanted to thank you all for your continued prayers. It wouldn't be so bad if I didn't know I was going to start losing my hair in about 5 days. They told me 18 days from my first Chemo my hair would start falling out. I feel like I'm on some kind of a count down. Yikes!! Oh, I'll live through all of this (prayerfully) but I sure am feeling a little anxious about it all this morning.
I pray you'll have a great weekend!
A special thank you goes out to my walking buddy Maria. Thank you so much for driving me to Chemo today. It was really a lot of fun!
Bo's soccer is now all over. We are sending him to a soccer camp for a week in July but that is right by our house. He had a great season; his travel team finished with a very close second. Only losing by one point. It was a great season plus his coach was wonderful. I could really tell he cared about this group of boy's.
The twins are doing well! They are relaxing this summer. Oh, they help me around the house. We all do Monday cleaning now instead of it just being me. They seem to like cleaning with mom. We all have a different job we do so it goes really fast. The boy's also take care of the yard work now.
Some good news
My Sailor is coming home to see us again. He flies in next Wednesday and will be here until Sunday. He deploys in September so this will be the last time I get to see him until next June. We talk everyday right now so it is going to be a bit of a shock to my system when he is gone. He has already warned me this week that he won't be able to email everyday. I might not hear from him for weeks at a time. Sometimes it is so hard to be a mom.
My son Bret, Jess and my little grandbabies are in Kentucky right now. Bret is opening two more Auto Port plants there. They will be gone for a bit. I miss them already!
Becca is back in Texas now and is doing well. I sure loved seeing her after my surgery. She came and helped her Mama get back on my feet and ran my routes when her dad got sick. I miss her too!
Prayer
My step-dad hasn't been doing very well. His red blood count is really low. Please pray for him, my mom and my little sister's.
I'll try to blog again soon! I just wanted to thank you all for your continued prayers. It wouldn't be so bad if I didn't know I was going to start losing my hair in about 5 days. They told me 18 days from my first Chemo my hair would start falling out. I feel like I'm on some kind of a count down. Yikes!! Oh, I'll live through all of this (prayerfully) but I sure am feeling a little anxious about it all this morning.
I pray you'll have a great weekend!
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
A New Look
I woke up this morning thinking it is about time for a change. I've gotten rid of some weighty things this morning so I was thinking. Self, it is time to brighten up your blog. Make it fit me a little better. I don't have much time this morning for a long post. I just finished my hour work-out and I now have just enough time to take out the trash and run down to the local Barber to get my boy's hair cuts beforehead I head off to work.
Now be honest, if you don't like it, just let me know and I will try another look.
Now be honest, if you don't like it, just let me know and I will try another look.
Saturday, June 14, 2008
I am one step closer to my last Chemo Treatment
Little update:
I'm doing really well today. The port being put in was like a really bad dentist appointment. {I've blogged about how much I love going to the dentist} I had that put in at 7:00 a.m. and my first Chemo at 9:00 a.m. They first put in all the Anti nausea and vomiting medication. I then had to chew on ice to help my mouth from the sores that would form. It is funny they actually have to make up the Chemo after they check your blog (My blood not my blog, ROFL, thanks gregc for pointing my typo out) and get you check in. I'm sure the Chemo is costly. The AC {Really hard Chemo} took 20 minutes going in. The nurse has to put that through the IV because it could burn the skin. The last Chemo took about 1 1/2 hours to go through my IV. We were at the hospital until 2:00 p.m. It took a bit of time for my first section.
It all really did seem to go smoothly. Besides sores in my mouth and of course my chest is sore where they put the port. I was a little nauseated and I did wake up with a really bad headache and stomach ache this morning. I took my meds like a good girl and after I laid back down for a few hours, I was good to go. I'm doing pretty good now. The meds make me more hyper than I already am. I couldn't get to sleep until midnight the night of my chemo. I thought if I worked the night before I would be calmer and could fall asleep when I got home. I only got two hours of sleep that night so I should have been tired.
Keep praying for me, I know your prayers are working. BTW-Thank you for being such faithful prayer partners and some mighty good blogging friends.
Lori
I'm doing really well today. The port being put in was like a really bad dentist appointment. {I've blogged about how much I love going to the dentist} I had that put in at 7:00 a.m. and my first Chemo at 9:00 a.m. They first put in all the Anti nausea and vomiting medication. I then had to chew on ice to help my mouth from the sores that would form. It is funny they actually have to make up the Chemo after they check your blog (My blood not my blog, ROFL, thanks gregc for pointing my typo out) and get you check in. I'm sure the Chemo is costly. The AC {Really hard Chemo} took 20 minutes going in. The nurse has to put that through the IV because it could burn the skin. The last Chemo took about 1 1/2 hours to go through my IV. We were at the hospital until 2:00 p.m. It took a bit of time for my first section.
It all really did seem to go smoothly. Besides sores in my mouth and of course my chest is sore where they put the port. I was a little nauseated and I did wake up with a really bad headache and stomach ache this morning. I took my meds like a good girl and after I laid back down for a few hours, I was good to go. I'm doing pretty good now. The meds make me more hyper than I already am. I couldn't get to sleep until midnight the night of my chemo. I thought if I worked the night before I would be calmer and could fall asleep when I got home. I only got two hours of sleep that night so I should have been tired.
Keep praying for me, I know your prayers are working. BTW-Thank you for being such faithful prayer partners and some mighty good blogging friends.
Lori
Thursday, June 12, 2008
Happy Birthday Mom
I want to introduce you to my mom, her name is Diane.
Happy Birthday Mom! You don't look a day over 29. Thank you for all of your love and support these last few months. Thank you for being at the hospital for Jim during both my surgeries, for watching me on Friday evening after my second surgery so Jim could work and not worry and last but not least, Thank you for the Butter pecan ice cream. It was so yummy! Please don't worry I'll be o.k. We will be out around 7:00 p.m. I didn't get a good list so I'll have to think of something good to get you all by myself. Hmmmmm, this happens every year. LOL!
With God's help I pray I will be able to fulfill this all by your next Birthday.
This is the list I received from my Mom.
For my Daughter to Be Healthy
For My Daughter to not get sick
For my Daughter to be Carried through all these days coming up!
For My Daughter to BE BLESSED BEYOND MEASURE!
This is my list precious Daugter nothing can compare but to see God carry you through these next weeks.
You ask and this is my desire for a Happy Birthay!
Love MaMa
With God's help Mom! I pray I will be able to fulfill all of these requests. I pray by your next Birthday I will be all better. I should even have a cute little hair cut by then.
A little about my Mom; she is now 62 years old, she has been married to my step-dad since 1977, she has 4 children, 27 grandchildren, 8 great grandchildren, she adopted two little girls, one is 11 (From China) and the other is 6 (from Cambodia), she home schools both girls, she works at home as a secretary for my brother's carpet cleaning business.
Sorry Mom about the age and year you were married. LOL!
Mom
I love you very much!
Sunday, June 08, 2008
My Love Letter
Months ago, I said I would post this love letter from my dear husband, as soon as I found it. I finally found it tonight, while unpacking more boxes from our move four years ago. I received it in this pretty frame so I had it hanging on the wall in our old home. Every time I would feel insecure, I would stand and read this. This man has stood by my side through many things in our lives and he is still standing. As I type this letter into the computer, tears are streaming down my face, just as if it were the first time I read it years ago. I don't know what I did to deserve such a wonderful man but I know, I have been blessed. The Love Letter from my Husband of 22 years
For my lovely wife, the jewel amongst all cut glass;
You are so beautiful my love! You are so beautiful. Your eyes draw me in and captivate my being. When I look into your gaze, my thoughts become fuzzy. They are clearer than the bluest water. You are as a lily among thorns when with other women!
Your voice is a tinkling stream on a hot dry, day. Its sweet melody brings peace and calm to my spirit. I long to hear you speak to me when I am away from you. Your lips are full and desirable! They beckon to me when I am near you. I love to go to the mountains of sweet perfume, to the hill of fragrance. Your tenderest places awaken the lion that sleeps within me. You stroke up a flame of desire within my bosom. To hold you is all that I want. To feel your tender caresses eases my soul. Turn your eyes from me because they overwhelm me. You are perfect, without blemish. There is no imperfection in your beauty. You are a true lady of God. Your spirit grows everyday. The Lord is your master and king and for this I am eternally grateful. You have come so far with Jesus, I am excited to see where you will be in years to come. You challenge my soul. Truly, God gave you to me as the one who makes me complete.
My love, I know that sometimes you wonder about my love for you. I regret that so very much. I have always loved you with all my heart and my love for you grows as the years pass. You can be as confident that I will always be there for you, as God rules, as you are that I am your brother in Christ! You are so precious to me. There is nothing I have that shines as even a distant light in comparison to you. I pray that our love grows, even as your beauty and spirit have already grown.
Your Beloved Forever
Thursday, June 05, 2008
I had A most enjoyable Day
I sure enjoyed my day! It was a bit warm but I enjoy the warm weather.
I love my welcome sign my mom and my step-dad bought me for Mother's Day a few years ago. I want everyone that visits my blog to feel as welcome as if you were visiting my home..
Welcome to my home.
I started out this morning by going to my Chemo class. You know, it wasn't so bad. God is doing a work in my heart. As I sat and looked around the room at the other women that will be taking Chemo. I can truly say, I fell a piece about the whole thing. My arm that was affected by the lymph node removal is almost 100 percent back to normal. My Chemo is on the opposite week that I lead Worship. There are just to many blessing to count.
I was blessed to be able to head off to work after my Chemo class. One doesn't realize what they have until they can't do it anymore. I'm blessed to be able to serve God, take care of my family, work, clean, work in my flower beds and sing on the Worship team. I get to do so many things that I have taken for granted over the years. Isn't God good!
This picture was taken Thursday June 5th, 2008.
I just took this tonight Sunday June 8th, 2008. My rose bushes came alive.
I have to confess, I did take a little rest on my front porch swing this evening. This swing was given to us by an old friend of ours. Let me tell you, it is very comfortable! I love to grab my Bible and sit on this comfortable swing and read.
It was a beautiful evening here in MI. I enjoyed walking around our home watering my flowers and enjoying working in my flower beds. I planted two peony bushes a few years ago. One finally bloomed.
My husband and I have been busy the last month pulling, planting and pruning our flower garden
My rose bushes came live! I just love all the pretty colors.
More of God's beauty.
More of our flower beds.
And more....
And more....
Yea! We got the garden planted.
Last but not least. I am now sitting at my computer, downloading my post for today. I am just really enjoying my life. This picture is old but I think you understand what I'm doing.
God is working in my life! I have been praying that God would help me deal with things I can't change and accept and learn from what has been given to me. Like how I see my husband and my children; I want to enjoying each and every moment with them. I am going to take all the changes that I have had to make lately and count them as blessings from the Lord.
May God bless all of you, as He has blessed me.
Wednesday, June 04, 2008
We're moving on UP! No we're not the Jefferson's
Oh were to start! We've been a bit busy with soccer and the end of the school year events. Bo has a game Saturday at 5:00 p.m. and a game Sunday at 2:00 p.m. those will be his last games of the season. He has tryouts on Monday for the fall season and then, we will have a little break.
It rained pretty hard on Bo at last Saturday's game.
Bo in action!
Our twins are moving up to 9Th grade next year. Last night we sat with about 1000 other people while there children, grandchildren, nieces or nephews moved up.
In a letter sent home from school, it stated that this was not like a graduation. The students were not to dress formally. Well, I dressed my boy's in causal clothes. Dress pants and a collared shirt. My boy's were way under dressed. I can't believe I forgot my camera at home. School will soon be out for the summer!
Oh, I've also been busy in all of my flower beds. I'll have to run around and take pictures. We also have lots of graduation parties to attend the next few weeks and then it will be time to kick back and relax for a while. LOL! Well, we will see about that.
It rained pretty hard on Bo at last Saturday's game.
Bo in action!Our twins are moving up to 9Th grade next year. Last night we sat with about 1000 other people while there children, grandchildren, nieces or nephews moved up.
In a letter sent home from school, it stated that this was not like a graduation. The students were not to dress formally. Well, I dressed my boy's in causal clothes. Dress pants and a collared shirt. My boy's were way under dressed. I can't believe I forgot my camera at home. School will soon be out for the summer!
Oh, I've also been busy in all of my flower beds. I'll have to run around and take pictures. We also have lots of graduation parties to attend the next few weeks and then it will be time to kick back and relax for a while. LOL! Well, we will see about that.
Sunday, June 01, 2008
My schedule for the next Year
This blog is not for the purpose of bringing everyone down when they come to visit me. I just wanted to let my family, friends and blogging friends know dates to pray for me. If you know anyone that has taken these Chemo drugs, I would love to know how they did on them. Please leave me a comment or email me at lorihouseholder@gmail.com.
I need prayer for my vanity! I'm a tough woman and I'm not really afraid of getting sick or being tired. The unknown is a bit scary. Losing all my hair is freaking me out. I laugh and joke about it but I really don't want to lose my hair. Please pray also that I will be able to keep working and singing on our Worship team. I'm just afraid I won't want to leave the house if I don't have somewhere to be.
I called Thursday to get my port rescheduled and my echo cardiogram. It will be sometime in the next two weeks, before Chemo anyway.
I had to rescheduled everything to do with my chemo because my husband got sick and had to have surgery. He had to have a gallstone surgically removed and he had to have his gallbladder out. Like I said, it has been crazy around my house. I still have to write about our (not just mine anymore) wonderful surgeon. I promise it is an unbelievable story. You will be able to see how God's hand was directing us to find a Godly Surgeon, through blogging mind you. I'll tell you all the story soon but I want you to meet this dear woman right now. She is one of our dear blogging friends. You can visit SJ here
I have a Chemo teaching class June 5th
I Met with Dr. Chottiner get blood work June 10th
Update as of the mail today, June 2nd.
I will have my echo cardiogram at 2:30 p.m. on June 10th.
I get my port put in at 7:00 a.m. on Friday June 13th and my first Chemo will the same morning at 9:00 a.m.
Chemo June 13th-Friday the 13 how appropriate LOL
Chemo June 27
Chemo July 11
Chemo July 25th
This is the Chemo I will be taking: Adriamycin & Cytoxan I will be having this together IV once every 2 weeks for four times.
I then will have Neupogen shots to raise my white blood count back up.
After that Taxol Weekly for 12 weeks
Radiation will start after Chemo is finished for 38 visits Monday thru Friday
I then will be on Tamoxifen for the rest of my life.
I need prayer for my vanity! I'm a tough woman and I'm not really afraid of getting sick or being tired. The unknown is a bit scary. Losing all my hair is freaking me out. I laugh and joke about it but I really don't want to lose my hair. Please pray also that I will be able to keep working and singing on our Worship team. I'm just afraid I won't want to leave the house if I don't have somewhere to be.
I called Thursday to get my port rescheduled and my echo cardiogram. It will be sometime in the next two weeks, before Chemo anyway.
I had to rescheduled everything to do with my chemo because my husband got sick and had to have surgery. He had to have a gallstone surgically removed and he had to have his gallbladder out. Like I said, it has been crazy around my house. I still have to write about our (not just mine anymore) wonderful surgeon. I promise it is an unbelievable story. You will be able to see how God's hand was directing us to find a Godly Surgeon, through blogging mind you. I'll tell you all the story soon but I want you to meet this dear woman right now. She is one of our dear blogging friends. You can visit SJ here
I have a Chemo teaching class June 5th
I Met with Dr. Chottiner get blood work June 10th
Update as of the mail today, June 2nd.
I will have my echo cardiogram at 2:30 p.m. on June 10th.
I get my port put in at 7:00 a.m. on Friday June 13th and my first Chemo will the same morning at 9:00 a.m.
Chemo June 13th-Friday the 13 how appropriate LOL
Chemo June 27
Chemo July 11
Chemo July 25th
This is the Chemo I will be taking: Adriamycin & Cytoxan I will be having this together IV once every 2 weeks for four times.
I then will have Neupogen shots to raise my white blood count back up.
After that Taxol Weekly for 12 weeks
Radiation will start after Chemo is finished for 38 visits Monday thru Friday
I then will be on Tamoxifen for the rest of my life.
Saturday, May 31, 2008
PROSPERITY AND PROVISION
PROSPERITY AND PROVISIONSunrise-Psalm 84:11
For the Lord God is a sun and shield;
the Lord bestows favor and honor;
no good thing does he withhold
from those whose walk is blameless.
Heavenly Father, thank you for the glorious sunrise this morning, and with it another opportunity to see your hand painting the sky. How dark the world would be without the sun, (without Your Son) for there would be no life, no warmth, no beauty. How dreadful it would be if you were not there, if your love did not shine forth, for then I would be in utter darkness, and for ever searching but never able to find peace. I was so at peace with my life this morning. I know that everything that happens and will happen is in your control. Thank you again for the beautiful sunrise this morning.
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
I'm feeling Great! Little Bald humor from my son and grandson.
I forgot to include in my post yesterday that I am feeling great! I'm back singing on the Worship team. Friday I started back doing both of my routes and my janitors job. Everything is healing up nicely. Oh, life is good.
God has been very, very good to me.
I'll finish telling my story soon but right now I have to run and get Boaz from his soccer practice.
You might think I'm whacked-out but here are a few funny comments from my son Bo and Ethan regarding me losing my hair from the Chemo. Hey, what can I say. I have to keep laughing. I refuse to let this destroy my life or my personality.
Boaz wanted to know about the Chemo so my husband and I told him that the oncologist told us the worse thing I'm really going to have to deal with is my hair loss. Boaz looked at me and said, "Dad is not going to want to sleep with you with a bald head. If he reaches over to rub your shoulder, he won't know if it is your bald head or your shoulder." I could not stop laughing at his comment. A little while later we turned the lights off to go to sleep. My husband reached out and started rubbing my shoulder. I said "How do you know if your rubbing my shoulder or my head". Hee, hee
Last night we went to my oldest Grandson's soccer game. It was a bit cold out last night so my husband brought blankets for me to cover up with. Ethan jumped up on my lap and got underneath the blankets. He kept staring at me with a funny little look on his face. I finally asked why he was looking at me so funny.
Remember he is only 5.
He said, "That looks real." I said, "What looks real." He said, "I know Nana that you have a bald head." he said, "Your hair, it looks real." I said, "Ethan, this is my real hair." He said, "Your not going to go bald? What if you do, if it is windy will your hair blow off." I assured him if my hair blows off, he needs to run and get it as fast as possible because it cost me $165.00. He asked me to tell him more funny story about my wig. We are going to be just fine. My family loves me for me not for my hair or how I look.
If that is all I have to look forward to with Chemo, I think I will just keep laughing about it.
I almost forgot the most important thing. My grandson scored a goal! Whooohooooo Goooooooo Josh!!
Blessings to you all!
God has been very, very good to me.
I'll finish telling my story soon but right now I have to run and get Boaz from his soccer practice.
You might think I'm whacked-out but here are a few funny comments from my son Bo and Ethan regarding me losing my hair from the Chemo. Hey, what can I say. I have to keep laughing. I refuse to let this destroy my life or my personality.
Boaz wanted to know about the Chemo so my husband and I told him that the oncologist told us the worse thing I'm really going to have to deal with is my hair loss. Boaz looked at me and said, "Dad is not going to want to sleep with you with a bald head. If he reaches over to rub your shoulder, he won't know if it is your bald head or your shoulder." I could not stop laughing at his comment. A little while later we turned the lights off to go to sleep. My husband reached out and started rubbing my shoulder. I said "How do you know if your rubbing my shoulder or my head". Hee, hee
Last night we went to my oldest Grandson's soccer game. It was a bit cold out last night so my husband brought blankets for me to cover up with. Ethan jumped up on my lap and got underneath the blankets. He kept staring at me with a funny little look on his face. I finally asked why he was looking at me so funny.
Remember he is only 5.
He said, "That looks real." I said, "What looks real." He said, "I know Nana that you have a bald head." he said, "Your hair, it looks real." I said, "Ethan, this is my real hair." He said, "Your not going to go bald? What if you do, if it is windy will your hair blow off." I assured him if my hair blows off, he needs to run and get it as fast as possible because it cost me $165.00. He asked me to tell him more funny story about my wig. We are going to be just fine. My family loves me for me not for my hair or how I look.
If that is all I have to look forward to with Chemo, I think I will just keep laughing about it.
I almost forgot the most important thing. My grandson scored a goal! Whooohooooo Goooooooo Josh!!
Blessings to you all!
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
What took place at my Physical
I think I'm strong enough now to tell my story! I'm only going to tell this story so that all of you women reading my blog will not put off getting your yearly check-ups. If I can save one woman from all of this, it will be well worth sharing my story.
About two months ago I went to the doctor's office because I felt a lump in my left breast. It had been there for a bit and I thought I'd better get it checked out. My grandmother was diagnosed with Breast cancer in her 40's.
I went for my check-up Monday morning March 17, 2008. It was St.Patrick's day 2008. I didn't tell them about the lump when I called, I just told them I needed a physical. After I got checked in, I told them about the lump. The Nurse that did my physical wasn't happy. I got a very long. long lecture! I tried to explain why I waited so long before I came to see the Doctor. Oh, I thought it would just go away after a bit. If you have read my blog for any length of time you will know I keep myself very busy. Always something else I should be doing. After much nagging from my Daughter-in-law and my Mom, (You know I love you both very much) I decided I'd better make an appointment.
The next day (Tuesday March 18th, 2008) the nurse sent me to get a Mammogram and Ultra sound on the lump. I had several pictures taken! I was then placed in a waiting room with a group of women all dressed in the same hospital shirt; with all of them having the same frightened look on their faces. One by one the women's names were called. They were told they were free to go or that they needed to get more pictures taken. It was a bit spooky waiting for them to tell ME I was good or I had to go get more pictures. Well, I being one of the lucky ones had to get more pictures taken.
I was then moved to another room where a woman sat crying. She was the only one in this room. I felt so sorry for this poor woman, I said a silent prayer for her at that moment. It was then my turn to have an Ultra sound. After everything, they sat me down in a conference room (I knew this could not be a good thing) and the Radiologist told me I had cancer. They showed me my pictures and where the Cancer was. They told me I needed to find a surgeon. It really didn't hit me at that moment what it all meant and how my life would begin to change.
Finding a surgeon: This is a story I will wait to tell. How I found my surgeon was a bit of a miracle.
They then sent me to have an MRI because my Breasts are dense; Meaning they can't see through them. I was then sent to get the tumor biopsied. I was told it wouldn't hurt very much; well it hurt pretty bad. They take what looks to be a big dart gun, it is shot through the breast into the tumor and it takes out tissue. They did this in four different areas of the tumor. Ouch, ouch and ouch! I had seven children with no medication so I tryed to take it like a man.
This is just the start of what would be a long two months! More in my next post.
About two months ago I went to the doctor's office because I felt a lump in my left breast. It had been there for a bit and I thought I'd better get it checked out. My grandmother was diagnosed with Breast cancer in her 40's.
I went for my check-up Monday morning March 17, 2008. It was St.Patrick's day 2008. I didn't tell them about the lump when I called, I just told them I needed a physical. After I got checked in, I told them about the lump. The Nurse that did my physical wasn't happy. I got a very long. long lecture! I tried to explain why I waited so long before I came to see the Doctor. Oh, I thought it would just go away after a bit. If you have read my blog for any length of time you will know I keep myself very busy. Always something else I should be doing. After much nagging from my Daughter-in-law and my Mom, (You know I love you both very much) I decided I'd better make an appointment.
The next day (Tuesday March 18th, 2008) the nurse sent me to get a Mammogram and Ultra sound on the lump. I had several pictures taken! I was then placed in a waiting room with a group of women all dressed in the same hospital shirt; with all of them having the same frightened look on their faces. One by one the women's names were called. They were told they were free to go or that they needed to get more pictures taken. It was a bit spooky waiting for them to tell ME I was good or I had to go get more pictures. Well, I being one of the lucky ones had to get more pictures taken.
I was then moved to another room where a woman sat crying. She was the only one in this room. I felt so sorry for this poor woman, I said a silent prayer for her at that moment. It was then my turn to have an Ultra sound. After everything, they sat me down in a conference room (I knew this could not be a good thing) and the Radiologist told me I had cancer. They showed me my pictures and where the Cancer was. They told me I needed to find a surgeon. It really didn't hit me at that moment what it all meant and how my life would begin to change.
Finding a surgeon: This is a story I will wait to tell. How I found my surgeon was a bit of a miracle.
They then sent me to have an MRI because my Breasts are dense; Meaning they can't see through them. I was then sent to get the tumor biopsied. I was told it wouldn't hurt very much; well it hurt pretty bad. They take what looks to be a big dart gun, it is shot through the breast into the tumor and it takes out tissue. They did this in four different areas of the tumor. Ouch, ouch and ouch! I had seven children with no medication so I tryed to take it like a man.
This is just the start of what would be a long two months! More in my next post.
Friday, May 23, 2008
My life has been a bit Crazy!
If I blog about what has transpired in my life the last month, no one would believe me. Unless infact you know me! I'll have a little more time for blogging next week after all of our guest or should I say Care Givers have left. My baby girl and my dad return home tomorrow and my boy will be leaving on Monday.
Stay tuned...more details next week.
Stay tuned...more details next week.
Monday, May 05, 2008
How my husband and I Met! By Loriannhouse Marriage Monday!
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I have no idea why it took me so many years to see what a fantastic man I am married to. Three months ago my eyes were opened, I could finally see all the sacrifices and the love this man has for me. Tears spring to my eyes just thinking about how I could have lost this man years ago. God spared his life and I am so thankful to Him for that. May I never take my husband for grated again. He is a strong leader, a very hard worker and provider, the best husband a woman could ask for, a dad that loves and gives up doing anything for himself to take care of and give to his children. Last but not least and most importantly a very Godly example for me and our children to follow. I never hear him complain about how hard he has to work to provide for us. The more I write about him the more my heart bursts with love for this man.
I found out I was ill about a month ago. I have had many test run, appointments and I have also had two surgeries in the past week! My husband took two weeks off work (he said he would take more if I needed him to) to take care of me. He has done all the laundry, dishes, cleaned the house, got the kids off to school AND he has had to help me undress, shower, dress, montitor the fluid from my drain that was attached to my side and my pain medication. Plus, the poor man still had to worked his second job. He also set someone up to watch me and the kids while he went to work. Goodness, I don't know what else to say about this man. I'll just tell you the story of how we met. Some day soon I'll share about my illness with all of you and how God has brought people into our lives to bring a sense of peace about the whole thing.
My husband and I met while we were both working at McDonalds. I was the opening manager and he was an employee. I don't remember the first time we met but I love to hear him tell his side of the story.
A funny side note: When we were young children our parents used to hang out together and we used to be watched by a babysitter in our home. I didn't remember him and he didn't remember me. How wild is that!
I was down in our break room at McDonalds's sitting with my boyfriend at the time. My husband (Jim) was on his orientation. The manager that was taking him around introduced us. (I don't remember this) My husband said he thought WOW! when he first saw me. (He is such a funny guy) He said, "I saw this beautiful lady through smoke filled eyes." (I smoked very heavy back then, I quit smoking 18 years ago, May). I love when he tells this story, I always get a chuckle from it.
My husband worked the night shift, I only worked with him a few times before he went on his senior trip to Spain. After he return home, I needed to cross train a closer on the opening shirt. (It was for a raise, all the manager's had to cross train an employee). My husband (just friend's at the time) and I, along with a group of our friends started hanging out together after work. Jim (My husband) and I became really good friends over a period of time. We played on the Mcdonald's coed softball team together, plus we did many other things as a group.
Manager's and crew were not allowed to date. A friend of my husband's dared us to go out on a date together. I had a little boy and really needed my job but I went anyway. We were already friends but it was a bit different being alone with him. Oh my, did I think he was good looking. The only problem was that he was younger than I was. I was looking for a father for my son and I didn't see how this could work out.
I kept seeing him anyway regardless of his age. (He is three years younger than I am) Like I said, we went out on several dates before he approached me one night in McDonalds's parking lot. He came up to my car window and asked me if I liked him? I said yes! He said, "NO, I mean do you really like me?" At that point I knew I wanted to marry this man. (He was just so cute) After we dated for over a year, he asked me to marry him. We were married not long after that.
My husband not only married me but took on my son (Bret was seven at the time) he treated Bret like his own from the very start. Even when we were just friends he would go to Bret's Baseball games. No other man I dated took such interest in Bret. Bret started calling him dad right after we got married. At 19 he was more responsible than a lot of the older men I dated. It was o.k. that they dated me but they really didn't want anything to do with my son. My husband gave up a Three year scholarship to the U of M to marry me? I wonder why such a smart guy would give up so much and have to work so hard his whole life, to marry me and take on my son? I don't know if I will ever figure that out. How could I every replace such a man? Even back then, he sacrificed his life for me. My husband is a great dad, he loves all of his children very much!
I have no idea why it took me so many years to see what a fantastic man I am married to. Three months ago my eyes were opened, I could finally see all the sacrifices and the love this man has for me. Tears spring to my eyes just thinking about how I could have lost this man years ago. God spared his life and I am so thankful to Him for that. May I never take my husband for grated again. He is a strong leader, a very hard worker and provider, the best husband a woman could ask for, a dad that loves and gives up doing anything for himself to take care of and give to his children. Last but not least and most importantly a very Godly example for me and our children to follow. I never hear him complain about how hard he has to work to provide for us. The more I write about him the more my heart bursts with love for this man.
I found out I was ill about a month ago. I have had many test run, appointments and I have also had two surgeries in the past week! My husband took two weeks off work (he said he would take more if I needed him to) to take care of me. He has done all the laundry, dishes, cleaned the house, got the kids off to school AND he has had to help me undress, shower, dress, montitor the fluid from my drain that was attached to my side and my pain medication. Plus, the poor man still had to worked his second job. He also set someone up to watch me and the kids while he went to work. Goodness, I don't know what else to say about this man. I'll just tell you the story of how we met. Some day soon I'll share about my illness with all of you and how God has brought people into our lives to bring a sense of peace about the whole thing.
My husband and I met while we were both working at McDonalds. I was the opening manager and he was an employee. I don't remember the first time we met but I love to hear him tell his side of the story.
A funny side note: When we were young children our parents used to hang out together and we used to be watched by a babysitter in our home. I didn't remember him and he didn't remember me. How wild is that!
I was down in our break room at McDonalds's sitting with my boyfriend at the time. My husband (Jim) was on his orientation. The manager that was taking him around introduced us. (I don't remember this) My husband said he thought WOW! when he first saw me. (He is such a funny guy) He said, "I saw this beautiful lady through smoke filled eyes." (I smoked very heavy back then, I quit smoking 18 years ago, May). I love when he tells this story, I always get a chuckle from it.
My husband worked the night shift, I only worked with him a few times before he went on his senior trip to Spain. After he return home, I needed to cross train a closer on the opening shirt. (It was for a raise, all the manager's had to cross train an employee). My husband (just friend's at the time) and I, along with a group of our friends started hanging out together after work. Jim (My husband) and I became really good friends over a period of time. We played on the Mcdonald's coed softball team together, plus we did many other things as a group.
Manager's and crew were not allowed to date. A friend of my husband's dared us to go out on a date together. I had a little boy and really needed my job but I went anyway. We were already friends but it was a bit different being alone with him. Oh my, did I think he was good looking. The only problem was that he was younger than I was. I was looking for a father for my son and I didn't see how this could work out.
I kept seeing him anyway regardless of his age. (He is three years younger than I am) Like I said, we went out on several dates before he approached me one night in McDonalds's parking lot. He came up to my car window and asked me if I liked him? I said yes! He said, "NO, I mean do you really like me?" At that point I knew I wanted to marry this man. (He was just so cute) After we dated for over a year, he asked me to marry him. We were married not long after that.
My husband not only married me but took on my son (Bret was seven at the time) he treated Bret like his own from the very start. Even when we were just friends he would go to Bret's Baseball games. No other man I dated took such interest in Bret. Bret started calling him dad right after we got married. At 19 he was more responsible than a lot of the older men I dated. It was o.k. that they dated me but they really didn't want anything to do with my son. My husband gave up a Three year scholarship to the U of M to marry me? I wonder why such a smart guy would give up so much and have to work so hard his whole life, to marry me and take on my son? I don't know if I will ever figure that out. How could I every replace such a man? Even back then, he sacrificed his life for me. My husband is a great dad, he loves all of his children very much!
Thursday, May 01, 2008
It's in the Valley we Grow
It's in the Valley we Grow
Sometimes life seems hard to bear,
Full of sorrow, trouble and woe
It's then we have to remember
That it's in the valleys we grow.
If we always stayed on the mountain top
And never experienced pain,
We would never appreciate God's love
And would be living in vain.
We have so much to learn
And our growth is very slow,
Sometimes we need the mountain tops,
But it's in the valleys we grow.
We do not always understand
Why things happen as they do,
But I am very sure of one thing.
My Lord will see me through.
The little valleys are nothing
When we picture Christ on the cross
He went through the valley of death;
His victory was Satan's loss.
Forgive me Lord, for complaining
When I'm feeling so very low.
Just give me a gentle reminder
That it's in the valleys I grow.
Continue to strengthen me, Lord
And use my life each day
To share your love with others
And help them find their way.
Thank you for the valleys, Lord
For this one thing I know
The mountain tops are glorious
But it's in the valleys I grow!
Have a blessed weekend!
Sometimes life seems hard to bear,
Full of sorrow, trouble and woe
It's then we have to remember
That it's in the valleys we grow.
If we always stayed on the mountain top
And never experienced pain,
We would never appreciate God's love
And would be living in vain.
We have so much to learn
And our growth is very slow,
Sometimes we need the mountain tops,
But it's in the valleys we grow.
We do not always understand
Why things happen as they do,
But I am very sure of one thing.
My Lord will see me through.
The little valleys are nothing
When we picture Christ on the cross
He went through the valley of death;
His victory was Satan's loss.
Forgive me Lord, for complaining
When I'm feeling so very low.
Just give me a gentle reminder
That it's in the valleys I grow.
Continue to strengthen me, Lord
And use my life each day
To share your love with others
And help them find their way.
Thank you for the valleys, Lord
For this one thing I know
The mountain tops are glorious
But it's in the valleys I grow!
Have a blessed weekend!
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
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Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Just when I needed You Most
I can't imagine not knowing God. I know there were many years that I tried to do things without Him. Growing up I didn't know the first thing about God and His love for me. I only remember going to church one time as a child. It was a Easter Sunday; My sister, brother and I received what I thought to be, some lovely clothes for our Easter gift. We dressed all up and headed off to church. On our way home from church my parents argued about us not being dressed well enough for "those people". I thought if that is what church is all about, why would I want to go to it. (I was only around 5, but it left me with some very bad thoughts about God, church and church people). What an impact that church could have had on an unsaved family. I PTL that in my teen years my Step-dad and Mom received Christ as their personal Savior and not long after that I did.
Last night I read about Jesus taking the little children into His arms speaking about the love, care and protection with which He embraces all those who come to Him. This is how God is, He doesn't care about the clothes we wear. In my forever and ever persuit for complete holiness (I know I can't receive complete holiness until I see Jesus someday). I am forever searching the scriptures to see how God wants me to live my life. I was so comforted by these verses below. Knowing His arms are forever around me helping me make it through each day, carrying me when I run in to some hard times. These verses remind me and show me, how things in my life, that I think are troublesome are nothing for God.
I am so glad God’s arms are everlasting. My arms grow tired too soon. I can only do so much with my arms, before my arms fall limp by my side, but His arms are everlasting. They never grow old, they never weaken and they never need to rest. Their strength never fail and they last forever. Long after they have done all the saving, comforting and creating that needs to be done, they will still be as strong as the day it all started.
Chronicles 32:8 speaks about the weakness of the arm of flesh (man’s arm) and yet I so often put my trust in the arm of flesh which is very weak, limited and will fade away. If I were being swept away by a powerful river and a child stretched out his arm, but at the same time, a giant stretched out his arm, would I grab the hand of the child or the giant? Why then do I grab the arm of flesh when God’s mighty arm is also outstretched? Seems crazy, yet that is exactly what I do most of the time.
The eternal God is your refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms… (Deuteronomy 33:27
Psalm 89:13 says: “You have a mighty arm; strong is Your hand, and high is Your right hand.” Yes God’s arm is mighty. In fact it is almighty. We have real limits to how much weight we can pick up, but there is no limit to God’s strength. He is all-powerful and has unlimited power.
Throw yourself on Him with all your cares, fears and weakness. Lean on Him. “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding” (Proverbs 3:5)
When I stumble and fall God is always there to catch me. Psalm 37:17 says “For the arms of the wicked shall be broken, but the Lord upholds the righteous.”
How reassuring to know He is not only steadying me when our legs feel weak but He also holds me up. Unfortunately I often think I am standing on my own feet and don’t realize that I am being upheld by Him.
Just when I need Him, Jesus is near,
Just when I falter, just when I fear;
Ready to help me, ready to cheer,
Just when I need Him most.
Just when I need Him most,
Just when I need Him most,
Jesus is near to comfort and cheer,
Just when I need Him most.
Just when I need Him, Jesus is true,
Never forsaking, all the way thro',
Giving for burdens pleasures anew,
Just when I need Him most.
Just when I need Him most,
Just when I need Him most,
Jesus is near to comfort and cheer,
Just when I need Him most.
Just when I need Him, Jesus is strong,
Bearing my burdens all the day long;
For all my sorrow giving a song,
Just when I need Him most.
Just when I need Him most,
Just when I need Him most,
Jesus is near to comfort and cheer,
Just when I need Him most.
Just when I need Him, He is my all,
Answering when upon Him I call;
Tenderly watching lest I should fall,
Just when I need Him most.
Just when I need Him most,
Just when I need Him most,
Jesus is near to comfort and cheer,
Just when I need Him most.
Last night I read about Jesus taking the little children into His arms speaking about the love, care and protection with which He embraces all those who come to Him. This is how God is, He doesn't care about the clothes we wear. In my forever and ever persuit for complete holiness (I know I can't receive complete holiness until I see Jesus someday). I am forever searching the scriptures to see how God wants me to live my life. I was so comforted by these verses below. Knowing His arms are forever around me helping me make it through each day, carrying me when I run in to some hard times. These verses remind me and show me, how things in my life, that I think are troublesome are nothing for God.
I am so glad God’s arms are everlasting. My arms grow tired too soon. I can only do so much with my arms, before my arms fall limp by my side, but His arms are everlasting. They never grow old, they never weaken and they never need to rest. Their strength never fail and they last forever. Long after they have done all the saving, comforting and creating that needs to be done, they will still be as strong as the day it all started.
Chronicles 32:8 speaks about the weakness of the arm of flesh (man’s arm) and yet I so often put my trust in the arm of flesh which is very weak, limited and will fade away. If I were being swept away by a powerful river and a child stretched out his arm, but at the same time, a giant stretched out his arm, would I grab the hand of the child or the giant? Why then do I grab the arm of flesh when God’s mighty arm is also outstretched? Seems crazy, yet that is exactly what I do most of the time.
The eternal God is your refuge, and underneath are the everlasting arms… (Deuteronomy 33:27
Psalm 89:13 says: “You have a mighty arm; strong is Your hand, and high is Your right hand.” Yes God’s arm is mighty. In fact it is almighty. We have real limits to how much weight we can pick up, but there is no limit to God’s strength. He is all-powerful and has unlimited power.
Throw yourself on Him with all your cares, fears and weakness. Lean on Him. “Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding” (Proverbs 3:5)
When I stumble and fall God is always there to catch me. Psalm 37:17 says “For the arms of the wicked shall be broken, but the Lord upholds the righteous.”
How reassuring to know He is not only steadying me when our legs feel weak but He also holds me up. Unfortunately I often think I am standing on my own feet and don’t realize that I am being upheld by Him.
Just when I need Him, Jesus is near,
Just when I falter, just when I fear;
Ready to help me, ready to cheer,
Just when I need Him most.
Just when I need Him most,
Just when I need Him most,
Jesus is near to comfort and cheer,
Just when I need Him most.
Just when I need Him, Jesus is true,
Never forsaking, all the way thro',
Giving for burdens pleasures anew,
Just when I need Him most.
Just when I need Him most,
Just when I need Him most,
Jesus is near to comfort and cheer,
Just when I need Him most.
Just when I need Him, Jesus is strong,
Bearing my burdens all the day long;
For all my sorrow giving a song,
Just when I need Him most.
Just when I need Him most,
Just when I need Him most,
Jesus is near to comfort and cheer,
Just when I need Him most.
Just when I need Him, He is my all,
Answering when upon Him I call;
Tenderly watching lest I should fall,
Just when I need Him most.
Just when I need Him most,
Just when I need Him most,
Jesus is near to comfort and cheer,
Just when I need Him most.
The Surgeon
She jumped up as soon as she saw the surgeon come out of the operating room.
She said: 'How is my little boy? Is he going to be all right? When can I see him?'
The surgeon said, 'I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn't make it.
Sally said, 'Why do little children get cancer? Doesn't God care any more? Where were you, God, when my son needed you?'
The surgeon asked, 'Would you like some time alone with your son? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university.
Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair. 'Would you like a lock of his hair?' the nurse asked. Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally.
The mother said, 'It was Jimmy's idea to donate his body to the University for Study. He said it might help somebody else. 'I said no at first, but Jimmy said, ' Mom , I won't be using it after I die. Maybe it will help some other little boy spend one more day with his Mom .' She went on, 'My Jimmy had a heart of gold. Always thinking of someone else. Always wanting to help others if he could.
Sally walked out of Children's Mercy Hospital for the last time, after spending most of the last six months there. She put the bag with Jimmy's belongings on the seat beside her in the car.
The drive home was difficult. It was even harder to enter the empty house. She carried Jimmy's belongings, and the plastic bag with the lock of his hair to her son's room.
She started placing the model cars and other personal things back in his room exactly where he had always kept them. She lay down across his bed and, hugging his pillow, cried herself to sleep.
It was around midnight when Sally awoke. Lying beside her on the bed was a folded letter.
The letter said :
'Dear Mom ,
I know you're going to miss me; but don't think that I will ever forget you, or stop loving you, just 'cause I'm not around to say 'I Love You' . I will always love you, Mom , even more with each day. Someday we will see each other again. Until then, if you want to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely, that's okay with me. He can have my room and old stuff to play with. But, if you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn't like the same things us boys do. You'll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like, you know.
Don't be sad thinking about me. This really is a neat place. Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me around some, but it will take a long time to see everything. The angels are so cool. I love to watch them fly. And, you know what? Jesus doesn't look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I knew it was Him. Jesus himself took me to see GOD! And guess what, Mom ? I got to sit on God's knee and talk to Him, like I was somebody important. That's when I told Him that I wanted to write you a letter, to tell you good bye and everything. But I already knew that wasn't allowed. Well, you know what Mom ? God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you. God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him 'where was He when I needed him?' 'God said He was in the same place with me, as when His son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He always is with all His children.
Oh, by the way, Mom , no one else can see what I've written except you. To everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper. Isn't that cool? I have to give God His pen back now He needs it to write some more names in the Book of Life. Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I'm sure the food will be great.
Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I don't hurt anymore the cancer is all gone.. I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain anymore and God couldn't stand to see me hurt so much, either. That's when He sent The Angel of Mercy to come get me.
The Angel said I was a Special Delivery! How about that?
Signed with Love from God, Jesus & Me.
'When you're down to nothing, God is up to something.
She said: 'How is my little boy? Is he going to be all right? When can I see him?'
The surgeon said, 'I'm sorry. We did all we could, but your boy didn't make it.
Sally said, 'Why do little children get cancer? Doesn't God care any more? Where were you, God, when my son needed you?'
The surgeon asked, 'Would you like some time alone with your son? One of the nurses will be out in a few minutes, before he's transported to the university.
Sally asked the nurse to stay with her while she said good bye to son. She ran her fingers lovingly through his thick red curly hair. 'Would you like a lock of his hair?' the nurse asked. Sally nodded yes. The nurse cut a lock of the boy's hair, put it in a plastic bag and handed it to Sally.
The mother said, 'It was Jimmy's idea to donate his body to the University for Study. He said it might help somebody else. 'I said no at first, but Jimmy said, ' Mom , I won't be using it after I die. Maybe it will help some other little boy spend one more day with his Mom .' She went on, 'My Jimmy had a heart of gold. Always thinking of someone else. Always wanting to help others if he could.
Sally walked out of Children's Mercy Hospital for the last time, after spending most of the last six months there. She put the bag with Jimmy's belongings on the seat beside her in the car.
The drive home was difficult. It was even harder to enter the empty house. She carried Jimmy's belongings, and the plastic bag with the lock of his hair to her son's room.
She started placing the model cars and other personal things back in his room exactly where he had always kept them. She lay down across his bed and, hugging his pillow, cried herself to sleep.
It was around midnight when Sally awoke. Lying beside her on the bed was a folded letter.
The letter said :
'Dear Mom ,
I know you're going to miss me; but don't think that I will ever forget you, or stop loving you, just 'cause I'm not around to say 'I Love You' . I will always love you, Mom , even more with each day. Someday we will see each other again. Until then, if you want to adopt a little boy so you won't be so lonely, that's okay with me. He can have my room and old stuff to play with. But, if you decide to get a girl instead, she probably wouldn't like the same things us boys do. You'll have to buy her dolls and stuff girls like, you know.
Don't be sad thinking about me. This really is a neat place. Grandma and Grandpa met me as soon as I got here and showed me around some, but it will take a long time to see everything. The angels are so cool. I love to watch them fly. And, you know what? Jesus doesn't look like any of his pictures. Yet, when I saw Him, I knew it was Him. Jesus himself took me to see GOD! And guess what, Mom ? I got to sit on God's knee and talk to Him, like I was somebody important. That's when I told Him that I wanted to write you a letter, to tell you good bye and everything. But I already knew that wasn't allowed. Well, you know what Mom ? God handed me some paper and His own personal pen to write you this letter I think Gabriel is the name of the angel who is going to drop this letter off to you. God said for me to give you the answer to one of the questions you asked Him 'where was He when I needed him?' 'God said He was in the same place with me, as when His son Jesus was on the cross. He was right there, as He always is with all His children.
Oh, by the way, Mom , no one else can see what I've written except you. To everyone else this is just a blank piece of paper. Isn't that cool? I have to give God His pen back now He needs it to write some more names in the Book of Life. Tonight I get to sit at the table with Jesus for supper. I'm sure the food will be great.
Oh, I almost forgot to tell you. I don't hurt anymore the cancer is all gone.. I'm glad because I couldn't stand that pain anymore and God couldn't stand to see me hurt so much, either. That's when He sent The Angel of Mercy to come get me.
The Angel said I was a Special Delivery! How about that?
Signed with Love from God, Jesus & Me.
'When you're down to nothing, God is up to something.
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Do you see the bright side of Things?
I can't leave my blog on such a sad note, it is just not my personality. I had a wonderful visit with my boy; I can't wait until I see him again. Maybe, I'll be able to visit Virgina. Won't that be fun!
I talked to Aaron last night and he said things were going to be o.k.., I am so grateful that he is willing to serve our Country.
I always try (I sometimes fail) to look on the bright side of things that happen in my life. My husband asked me if I was always going to cry when our children visit and when they leave to go back home. I told him, I am sure I will always cry! I don't think that it is a bad thing. God gave us our tears and emotions for a reason. I just seem to always have a reason to either laugh or cry. I asked my boy's if they were going to cry when Aaron left this time. Jimmy looked at me and said he was just hard to him leaving. I understood what Jimmy meant. It isn't that he won't miss him, he is just use to him not living at home anymore. I don't ever want to get to the point were I am hard to them leaving. If I cry it is just because I will miss them so much. I don't stay down for long, just a few days. I am now looking forward to all the fun stories he is going to be able to share with me.
My weekend was busy but good! Bo had a soccer game yesterday; his team won! They are 2-0 right now. There was a big Word of life conference at our church yesterday so I couldn't clean the church until they left. I got home around 10:00 p.m. This a.m. my papers were really late, so late that I couldn't even make it to church. There is a bright side! It was suppose to rain last night and it didn't. When it rains I have to bag all papers plus I get soaked. Sunday papers are pretty big, it takes a lot of energy without having to bag them.
This afternoon I went to my oldest Grandson's soccer game (His team won) I then went over to his house for a Birthday party for him. I can't believe Josh is 10 already. I had a wonderful time!
I am now going to get an early start on my Monday cleaning. On Monday's I try to go through my house and clean really well. That means dusting, vacuuming, mopping, scrubbing everything I can get my hands on. This way the rest of the week I just have to pick up and do laundry. I like to always have my house ready for guests to drop in.
On the brighter side! (Just kidding)
I am now going to sign off and get to cleaning!
BTW-My kids all made the schools Honor roll! woohoo!
I talked to Aaron last night and he said things were going to be o.k.., I am so grateful that he is willing to serve our Country.
I always try (I sometimes fail) to look on the bright side of things that happen in my life. My husband asked me if I was always going to cry when our children visit and when they leave to go back home. I told him, I am sure I will always cry! I don't think that it is a bad thing. God gave us our tears and emotions for a reason. I just seem to always have a reason to either laugh or cry. I asked my boy's if they were going to cry when Aaron left this time. Jimmy looked at me and said he was just hard to him leaving. I understood what Jimmy meant. It isn't that he won't miss him, he is just use to him not living at home anymore. I don't ever want to get to the point were I am hard to them leaving. If I cry it is just because I will miss them so much. I don't stay down for long, just a few days. I am now looking forward to all the fun stories he is going to be able to share with me.
My weekend was busy but good! Bo had a soccer game yesterday; his team won! They are 2-0 right now. There was a big Word of life conference at our church yesterday so I couldn't clean the church until they left. I got home around 10:00 p.m. This a.m. my papers were really late, so late that I couldn't even make it to church. There is a bright side! It was suppose to rain last night and it didn't. When it rains I have to bag all papers plus I get soaked. Sunday papers are pretty big, it takes a lot of energy without having to bag them.
This afternoon I went to my oldest Grandson's soccer game (His team won) I then went over to his house for a Birthday party for him. I can't believe Josh is 10 already. I had a wonderful time!
I am now going to get an early start on my Monday cleaning. On Monday's I try to go through my house and clean really well. That means dusting, vacuuming, mopping, scrubbing everything I can get my hands on. This way the rest of the week I just have to pick up and do laundry. I like to always have my house ready for guests to drop in.
On the brighter side! (Just kidding)
I am now going to sign off and get to cleaning!
BTW-My kids all made the schools Honor roll! woohoo!
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